nobody understands me yo..

im mad fuckin emotional right now; dis 1 of times where i really need sam; cuz she would kno wat to do :-< but like no1 understands me cuz dey aint been thru wat i been thru. and im arguin wit my moms cuz like she kno wat it iz and she always hasslin me to do shit :-< and when i get mad and tell her she dont understand me she get mad. and im yellin like how u gon say u kno and u neva talk to me and we goin back and forth and she jus walk out; at dis point im cryin and shit havin a fuckin emotional breakdown cuz i realize dat i aint got no1 to talk to dat feels me; and my girl aint online so i cant talk to her smh. i miss her too but i caint even speak to her cuz im scared i might flip out on her so i wont even call, but anyway. im arguin wit her tellin her she dun understand she jus got back in my life shit i been havin hard ass times since i was 12; aint nobody been dere to teach me shit i been on my own; i grew up too fuckin quick; shit she was neva dere all she did was fuckin birth me; i hugg her errday and tell her i love her but she act like she caint appreaciiate shit and im up here tearin up and shit; holdin it back and tryna convert it into musik or sum otha talent of mines; and its like caint no1 cheer me up; lores mad me smile; ash was here for me; but man sam wasnt even on and i feel like i can talk to her bout anything cuz i kno she understand and if she dont she gon find a way too :)) dere go my 2nd smile lol. but yea man im so fuckin frustrated cuz my bitch ass brother talkin bout he been thru da same thing. all dis "my parents on crack" and shit iz gettin old nigga fuck dat. my parents aint been here for me since i was 12 yo; he had his till he was 15 shit i made my own self aint nobody make me. i learned errthang i need to by myself aint nobody neva did shit to me; when i was 12 i lived off the same outfits till i was in 8th grade. den i got tired of it; i said imma get me sumthin whether its legal or not and got out there and made my money; fuck dat. aint nobody teach me how to be a man. for me to be self taught imma damn good 1; im jus 16 and i done been thru mo shit tha n a mufucka. but im fuckin tired of typin imma go express myself in rhyme; *deep breathe* i feel better now :D